Colleen ( Read more... )

so! there's this girl. and she has red hair. her name's colleen. and i really can't stop thinking about her.
 AT ALL. dfkjkfdsjbfh! i'm actually happy for the first time, in a long time.

but i'm scared. not scared of a relationship or anything. just when is the right time to make her mine. 

i really shouldn't have ended it.
and i know ill miss her a whole lot.
even though we don't talk much.
im worried about her.

im sorry. but that really doesnt mean shit now.
good luck.

So take another long hit of this cigarette that you refer it to hope.
it's ironic, carbon monoxide can't safe you now.
All hope lost. All faith lost. All love lost.

and the season's change.

have you called by now?

I'm in neck deep with this feeling of mine. I want it to drown me as if it could keep me there forever. There's nothing more that I could ask for: You are the only thing I am asking for.

I'm working on this song I started today.
I think I'll name it...
"This is what you call change."
Lying all this motel bed.
I've been thinking:
"thinking I deserve better than this."
I've been wondering:
"Has my wishful thinking paid off?"
Color in the lines. "I'll keep you safe."

"I feel safe, and Happy."

Nixon just isn't the same for me.
It brings back too many bad memories.
but I'm not sure why.

I am in love. But yet, why do i feel so scared?

I feel as if i am under the influence of too many drugs and too many alcohol drinks, I can't see straight.

Despite the scared feeling i have, i feel so perfect right now.

as for right now: I could not be any happier than i am right now. I feel this way around your presence, or in general. I am happy for everything you've given me. I am happy for everything working out between us. I once never felt like this with you. You and I were slipping apart, and I found myself a confused mess. I am glad I found you, again. ( Read more... )