Something is wrong with me. Things are slipping in my mind... dreams and reality aren't easy to distinguish from one another. Last night I had a dream that I was at a restaurant with my brother and his wife. Lauren was also there, but it was strange. My brother sat in a booth across from his wife. in the next booth over, at a whole other table ( Read more... )

So, These days I'm in a very strange place in my life. I'm pretty much pissed off for no apparent reason 80% of the time. Makes things pretty interesting though ( Read more... )

If i was smart, and people tell me I am. I wouldn't back away now. This is my chance. I can set the bar here. No way anyone would come close, I'd be the guy. Problem is, I'm not so sure i want it any more ( Read more... )

I've had a pretty crummy day. So, my newfound optimism is kind of waning. Not really sure why, I guess it's just boredom. Things i thought were going to happen, didn't and it's just getting to me. I was watching TV, The King of queens cause nothing else was on. Never mind, that's a point i can't really make. It's a through the looking glass ( Read more... )

Getting over June wasn't easy. I don't think there's a person alive who would argue that. Some feelings are so intense you just can't let go of them. Some memories are so powerful, they never fade. The feelings that were there are ingrained in one particular memory of the love of my life, and i will never forget either ( Read more... )

Last night I decided to talk to myself in front of a mirror. It was very constructive i asure you. Mostly i tried to be really mean to myself, but i kept laughing. In light of it, I decided to be really nice to Lauren again. (Pete must hate me ( Read more... )

So today I went out with my friend Pete for something to eat and some quality conversation. As is our usual we hit up Billy's Sport Bar and Grill. They have some attractive waitressing staff there. I'm a terrible judge of age, but i think i tend to like the older ones best ( Read more... )

I was right. That is all ( Read more... )

I've never seen the movie Seven. I just happen to be nearly obsessed with the number. Whether I'm naming my aliases Sevin, Sevyn, or some other variation, I'm always finding ways to be seventh ( Read more... )

I think I'm pretty much sick of everyone at this point. My patience has all but run out, and i get irritated very easily. I don't know what the deal is, but my stomach is all kinds of fucked up, and i don't feel like going to the gym and feeling worse. Then there's the whole Laura thing, the Lauren thing, and I'm just a little stressed about it ( Read more... )