Many people have said that 2009 was a shitty year.
To me, 2009 was one of the best years of my life.
I stopped worrying about the future, and started living in the present.
and guess what....my desires and wants just came to me.
I've always felt somewhat like there were so many things missing in my life.
and so many questions unknown.
And  I always ( Read more... )

 So, I'm so ambivalent about what to get my boyfriend for christmas ( Read more... )

Michigan is lame.
Let's face it.
Let's be real.
I've been back in michigan for a little over a week now
and i can not wait to leave
not because i have a boyfriend back home
not because i miss having weather that isn't shitty like here
more because this place is so fucking boring
FUCKING BORING.
omgggg

I wish i could see more people here
but they are back ( Read more... )

Monday: Bikram Yoga
Tuesday:p90x ab ripper x, p90x stretching
Wednesday: p90x arms and shoulders, 10 laps @ the pool
Thursday: Bikram Yoga

Tomorrow:??? hmmmmm

I <3 my summer film aesthetics class.
I have a stupid crush. But I like it. ;)
I have been reading a lot of interesting things. lately.
Went to a psychic fair the other day. Those are always super intriguing to me.
Been going to yoga and feelin' good.
Getting along with my parents really well lately.
Love my new apartment. [people below me are kinda ( Read more... )

sometimes i think i want to be depressed.
it sounds really stupid.
really
but sometimes if i am in a bad mood i would rather cry and sulk over it in my brain
even though i know that it isn't a big deal and I could be so fine
but i decide not to be fine
but then all these thoughts simmer in brain for long periods of time
over and over
and i look decently ( Read more... )

my feelings are hurt on so many different levels.
it's emotionally draining
it makes me want to light up a cigarette
and chug down some wine  
and sit on my balcony of my new apartment
and weep
and cry.

and I don't even smoke.

last entry was a bit "deep" for lj.
sorry about that.

so, my friend's brother died last week of cancer. He was 15.
I went to the memorial service today. It drained me.
I only really met her brother once. It was three weeks ago.
I went to dinner with him and her family.
When I left the restaurant I said bye to him and then as I was going to my  car I looked back at him again.
And i thought,  I may never ( Read more... )

I find my professor kinda cute.
He is a short, 35ish year old, french, jaded, slightly akward philosophy teacher.
Sadly, i would rather date a 35 year old, french, jaded, slightly akward philosophy teacher then the guys I have been meeting at school.
oh dear.