this is great.. i say i will change and i listen to everyone else and now it turns out he thinks i stalked him. ya like i could ever be a stalker. that bastard never deserves happiness.. this is ridiculous.

he thinks i stalked him... i hate that stupid bastard.. why did i ever love him... i cant wait to see him.. oh i stalked him. yet he controled my life.

oh how i long to see him.. i miss him so much. his smile his eyes and his short little man walk. i fear though that he is in onve with another. one by a different name and even though that he loves her i still love him all the same. ahh i want to see him so bad. i just want him to notice me again, and want to be around me.

yes i did it agian.. him and i did it again. but this time a almost gave him head.. but i didnt.. i dont understand why head is bad to begin with. but i know it is. and on the other hand i know if i keep doing htings with him it is going to drive the guy i love away. i am just screwed over totaly. but o-well. i wont see head boy for 4 days even ( Read more... )

ok i think i am turning emo. well i miss him and he likes this girl who is alot like me. oh how i wish he would just belly up to the fact that he likes me. and now i know were his myspace is but the thing that bothers me is that he says if she was reading this... but liberty who is he best friend does know about it so how is he talking about ahhh.

he doesnt have a girlfriend she broke up with him. ya i hopoe he still loves me.....i think he does. he just needs to get over the fact i am in highschool

anyways....ok i hope he loves me, but htat is besides the point.. the point is that my some what best friend is trying to come between him and i and thats not cool. oh and besides that i still want to get with the other guy but dont really think that that is going to work... well it could... because i think he wants it to... ok bye

this is weird. ok i finally did it. i told him the truth. i told him everything. i cant believe it. it took me awhile but finall i did it. it was late at night and i called him up and told him the truth. i mean everything. and the worst thing is it ways all on his answering machine and i know he got the message. but he wont respond to my message ( Read more... )

im having a slumber party on saturday everyone is invited... and i think i should get drunk ok bye

ok.. well you kno when you finally relize that the guy you are in live with will never ever ove you back. i finally did. actually i dont think it has hit me just yet that he wants nothin more to do with me. but you see there really is isnt anything much i can do about it. i mean he left me for college and i knew when he did that our friendship ( Read more... )