i cant stop shaking. what a dissapointment. that is what you are. a memory. a dissapointing memory.

this isnt how growing up should work, not when youve become everything youve hated.

and if this is me growing up too, then should i just hate you?

this isnt a lyric, or a song. its the fucking truth.

I HATE BEING HOME. i got home from lewisville this week and just did not want to go inside. i dont know what it is, but i just dont feel comfortable there unless im in my room on my computer. i dont talk to anyone. i wanna talk to nicole and have fun with her, but im too afraid to do it in front of my parents. i dont know why. but anyways, we ( Read more... )

so yea. if you havent read any of whats been going on then really just dont bother. its not that important. everything is fine i guess. id like to say so much more, but really, like its been said, id rather keep it between us. it would take too long to explain anyways. just know that christina rose demarco is a wonderful individual and has every ( Read more... )

i got this advice on 10-5-03 ( Read more... )

i think im going to pass out and die. i cannot compete with that. i lose. atleast then everything will be fine. end.

Fridays show was incredible. the kirby and thumbscrew tore the place up. they had to play inside cuz we got rained out. yea.. we finished about 5 songs before it started pouring on us so we got cut short. we were doing so bad. craig fell into mikes drums about 3 times which was pretty funny. i fell from my cabinet which really hurt bad hahah.. so ( Read more... )

OOOOOOO this weekend should be mucho fun. we got an awesome show friday the 1st at the page house. its gonna be with thumbscrew and the kirby. its the kirbys ep release party and i have to say after hearing the cd the music sounds amazing. pick it up while youre there and stay for the scariest band in the world (thumbscrew) as well. we play before ( Read more... )

i dont know why i keep doing things that wont make her want me back. im such a fuck-up. im such an asshole and i dont deserve the best. end.

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this weekend was a total turn around. it was so bad starting friday. i got out of work and went straight to the page house for our show and had fun up until the show. it was a mess. totally unprofessional as far as my actions and im incredibly sorry to anyone i hurt or anyone that heard me. i blammed people that i should have it was not their fault ( Read more... )