I'm not posting this to garner pity. I'm not writing this out for the edification of others. I don't care if anyone comments. I'm putting it in writing because I'm having a "why me?" moment and I have to get it out ( Read more... )

Mother's Day... It's a day I don't celebrate because I lost my mother to mental illness when I was born (she had a stroke during childbirth and had a psychotic break) . So even though there was a female physically present in my life, I did not have a "mother." Mother's Day is also the anniversary of the day my mother beat my lower back so badly I ( Read more... )

"You've done remarkable things, but you're fighting a war you've already lost."

I've been hearing a lot lately about dreams, wishes, fantasies... all along the lines of "what would you do if you could go back and change something" or "if you had it to do over again, would you do anything different," etc. I used to believe, "No, given the chance I ( Read more... )

....you must of done somethin' to pass the fuck out on the living room floor."

Well, I was coming up on ten months seizure and aura free, but last night I bit it. I think I know what set it off, but I'm not completely sure... all I know is that I took a bath, got dressed, walked into the living room to watch the Olympics and all the light in the ( Read more... )

Well... it's been a full month since I last posted anything. If you recall, my last post might never have been had it not been for a good Samaritan and her Benadryl... see "Death by Fortune Cookie."

Anyway, where do I start? I have no freaking clue, so this will just be a long ramble.

On getting better medically: I'm finally at a point where I can ( Read more... )

NOT in any particular order... leave suggestions on what to ditch and what to add...

1. Sheena Is A Punk Rocker - The Ramones
2. White Horse (Original) - Wonderland Avenue
3. Owner Of A Lonely Heart - Yes
4. The Great Commandment - Camouflage
5. The Metro - HMB
6. I Melt With You - Jason Mraz
7. Friday, I'm In Love - Dryden Mitchell
8. Cry - Godley & Creme ( Read more... )

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My current favorite song: "Crazy Bitch" by Buckcherry

Download this one... unless you are adverse to seriously graphic lyrics.

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The above video clip is NOT me... this young woman is only three years in. I'm twenty years in...

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Inspired by a dear friend's loss, here is another episode in the saga of my grandmother Natalie Celestia Kellogg McCarthy.

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