It's happening again.
The same thing that has happened over and over again for the past four years.
Someone shows interest in me, I go along with it for a little while if they interest me back.
Then they actually want to date. and it scares me.
I don't want to date.
I like the attention and the companionship of having somebody.
Especially now when ( Read more... )

 so this is currently my last summer home.
it's turning out to be very disappointing.
everyone has other friends now.
everyone has a significant other now.
everyone has someone else to be with.
everyone has some where else to be.
when they said all your relationships change when you go to college.
they weren't kidding.
everyone leaves.

it's 60 in the middle of january.
not too shabby. I'll take it.
I have to go back to school early to work four days at the barn.
not happy.
NOT. happy.
hate working at the school's barn.
too many horses. too little people.
whatever. that's not for a few days.
until then I'm gonna enjoy this weather. <3

college blows.
don't ever go.
ever.

It's like 1 am.

and I am totally bored.

And hungry.

yeah.

(pointless)

Why is it this cold at night in July?
It's wrong.
just wrong.

Does it ever stop?
Really.
Is this just a circle?
Why must he suck me back in the minute I think I'm getting out?
This is so unfair to me.

so. college sucks.
driving sucks.
a certain boy i know here sucks.
but ponies do not suck.
fire fighters do not suck.
omg..bk so does not suck..mmm..

i think morrisville is an energy black hole,  cause whenever i come back here after i go home, all my energy gets drained.

uhm..so...I thought that i had this whole probelm under control and taken care of...but i still feel like empty...like theres more i need to take care of...like theres this guy Mike here that i had taked to every night for almost two months...he's a junior here at college...last thursday i finally hung out with him...and ended up staying over....so ( Read more... )

Ah, the thrills of sex.

Creates so much drama in everything it's involved with.

And the fact that some girls don't understand the ways of such a process.

If you sleep with my ex, I don't care, I already had them. 'nough said.

I'm now moved into morrisville, which is nice, i'm glad to escape all these  people that just irked my nerves in school.

Mo' ( Read more... )