have lots to share, but i'm exhausted. so will postpone until later. just wanted to let y'all know that i'm alive and well (B"H).

i feel like i'm 8 again and i can't sleep because i think that there are monsters in the closet. and i have to wrap myself with my blanket and stay awake until morning...

except that i'm 22 and the monsters are out of the closet and inside my head.

i feel helpless.

i feel lost.

wooo i'm officially a senior!

i needed you today. and you weren't there.

and there are moments when my world shrinks down, and the one thing that seems to be preventing my absolute happiness is the difference of a few pounds. and i wonder, will i ever truly accept myself for who i am?

reasons why i dislike my suitemate ( Read more... )

There is a bird chirping outside my window. Spring is coming?

panic attack in the middle of class today. hardcore awfulness.

got a care package from home with:
- chocolate cake
- yogurt covered raisins
- 2 oranges
- an article from the Oregonian about Duct Tape
- a card from my mom and dad
- a card from my sister

i cried really hard when i opened the box.

GO STEELERS!!!!!

there were riots right near campus. paddy wagons, riot police, swat tanks, the works... what else do you expect when you have 20,000 college-age steelers fans in one small area of the city??