finally, for the first time in a long time i am feeling content. usually im so restless. but some things are just out of my control. im more comfortable with my current situation. all things happen for a reason. although i do not feel that things are perfect...but is life ever? that answer is so clearly no. my life is far from it ( Read more... )

i feel so icky right now. dont know why. the heinous rainy cold weather sure isn't helping. i dont know why i let things get to me so much. i hate wearing my heart on my sleave. things have changed i guess. i mean i guess that i didnt really think about it....but it happened. thats rough. god why does this upset me? i feel so dumb. i feel like no ( Read more... )

im on the verge. i really am. almost completely purged! hey that rhymed...poet and dont know it! but the smallest infiltration could send me sailing back! oh what to do? run away! run far away! but what if i have finally over come it and will no longer be a pawn in this game.....i could prove it! come out on top! but ya know.....i dont think that ( Read more... )

i can not remember the last time that i updated...this makes me sad dear lj! i feel that i am a better, more stable person when i el jay....so here goes ( Read more... )

so here i am. school starts in 2 days. summer is almost over. hmmmm.....so much has changed ( Read more... )

i am discontent with life at the moment. im feeling restless and bored. way over certain situtations and wishing i was over others.......blah. i dont know how to fix this problem. im almost at a loss of words. im actually bored with torturing myself which i guess is a good thing. above all it just goes to show just how bored i am. ok, maybe i am ( Read more... )

so...things change....in an interesting and sporadic (sp?) way....hmmm. quite unexpected. but what now? where to go here? i feel that there are different options i could take...but which one is the best? or am i just screwing myself over for getting in this far? aaaahhhh....life must always be diffiult in my world. i wish that i could just know ( Read more... )

how much can one person take? when do you get to that point where u just quit? that point comes at different times with different people. but why not now? when i know it could be disastrous for me. why do i do it? the one thing i said when i started this was that i just wanted to stay away from things that would make me sad somewhere in the near ( Read more... )

well goodness i havent updated in soooo long....i love i how go trhough livejournal phases....but i always keep coming back for more ( Read more... )

well it's finally over! school that is....for a week and a half! lol. but hey...im not complaining. i feel free. all of my exams were bitches but it is all over now ( Read more... )