wow im so fucking glad to be alive right now. i just woke up from a long nap, havent gotten sleep in a few days, and i sort of remember having a cigarette before going to bed. sont remember putting it out.. woke up and theres 3 burn holes in my blanket...i dont know why, but im not dead...i mean i hear it all the time that cigarettes cause house ( Read more... )

wow i miss the summer already. i was just listening to strung out and i realized that im cracking as winters getting here, in the sense that i really want things to be well again, like it was when i didnt have to work and i could just walk on the clouds all day and enjoy my nights without having to worry about whether or not im going to make it to ( Read more... )

andnotfadeaway: hide my colours in a box ( Read more... )

YES i can drive now!!, i mean i can really drive now, stopping is no prob and shifting is like magic. i have so many oppertunities now and i dont even know how to chase them. couple past days have been great, cept last night, dave fell and got stitches in his head, we were all pretty drunk, it brings back when rich said never drink, so as to ( Read more... )

well wasnt summer fun..i mean look at the amazing things ive done...heh that was a little sarcastic but actually just to think for a second, ive had some amazing times..not in the ways i would have expected in the slightest..i have so much nowbut im still missing a lot, i think ive only found one person in the same book , much less the same page, ( Read more... )

YES ITS DONE AHAHA!!!!!!!! i finally finished The Birth of Venus, what a kick ass fucking book , im still fcking thinking about it. I got Dantes version of Inferno to read next >:) damnit..the book as too good...oh yea i got my license now too...gotta go get my crap ready for fall at CCM, lol that sentence is a big statement for me, i mean shit... ( Read more... )

Did you ever take out the time to really sit outside and admire the stillness of life? Its more beautiful then i can ever imagine or remember, especially the moment when i noticed the sky is a deeper shade of blue, like when you look under the sea to where the sun barely penetrates. And the leaves,when you close your eyes and listen to every ( Read more... )

Mother Mary, bury me in a place they'll never find ( Read more... )

wow some people have the wrong idea in life, i think thats what really fucks it up so bad. i think no one sees that they are all whole until they take it for granted and give up a piece of themselves for it. THen we end up fighting for we think was taken when really we just lost it ourselves ( Read more... )

so today was a weird day. I went ot work like usual and i got my delivery of marijuana so i was happy. then the day went all boreing and slow and then one of my arresting officers came in. All i could think about today was life ahead and how life was sorta meaningless...its weird how life can give you little secret messages about the future..i mean ( Read more... )