"no masters ( Read more... )

I've found solace lately in lone bike rides and solitude. privacy is a rare commodity when you live in a house with 5 other people. So, i've been enjoying my "lonely moments." i made it through the semester; however, i'm facing issues with my financial aid in the fall. i didn't plan on going back, but this could hinder when i go to this other ( Read more... )

today was almost a decent day, but it took only one minuscule misunderstanding and my day was wrecked. i just wish it wouldn't be so easy to throw me off. i just wish i could say "roll with the punches" and move on with my life, but this has been the hardest time of my life. i don't enjoy wallowing in self-pity, but when getting up each morning ( Read more... )

i have never felt so torn apart by anything in my life before. this has been the hardest week of my life. just looking at her just puts such a heavy weight on my chest and a sickness in my stomach. i have no idea what to do with my life each day. i just spend my life wandering with no direction. i just wish she would realize that i could make ( Read more... )

in times of despair you return to what you know. SO, here i am at lj again. i've been taking the break up very harshly. i hide it well, but i've been a total mess. i'm so glad i have such supportive friends. i'd be even farther down than i am now if that's possible. i wonder through everyday with no purpose or sense of direction, and it's so ( Read more... )

It's been 4 long months since I've updated this. At this point, nobody reads this. Nobody cares. It's fine. I don't have shit to do anyway. I'm at the library, and I'm currently being an asshole who wastes an entire computer for social networking. I am Stephen Dorsey, and I am a hypocrite. Sweet... So, I listen to jazz music all the time. ( Read more... )

I was kicked out of my house last night because some fucking idiots threw rocks at my car window, and made two small cracks in the windshield. after telling him, knowing he would freak out, but realizing it's truly not my fault. i was terribly wrong. it turned into a screaming match, and ended with dad telling me to "get the hell out!" luckily ( Read more... )

I traced the cord back to the wall just to find out there's no wall at all. In these inglorious days, I waste away. I find it hard to believe my life has taken such a terrible turn for the worse. I am at a loss for words. with no motive! no sense of direction! back and forth these ups and downs take me for a ride. i take one step forward and ( Read more... )

this summer thus far has been interesting to say the least. i rarely hang out with anyone, but when i do i try and make it count! i've gone to so many shows lately. i don't know why i ever stopped! shows are so fun, drama free (for me atleast), the bands are always great, and i get to see people i wouldn't otherwise ever see! also, playing ( Read more... )

i'm going to close my eyes and when i open them, this semester better be over.

god dammit....