its bloody wonderful being moved out and living on my own. i think im the happiest ive ever been.

so looks like ill be moving out finally day after tomorrow. i have all my shit packed up, just need a big strong man to help me get all my shit on the trailer and up the stairs. me and ryan are gonna have lotsa fun to celebrate my first night moved out... ^___^

last week i was officially diagnosed with severe to moderate clinical depression. i have my first therapist appointment tomorrow.

whatever walks in my heart will walk alone.

i was just upset, i know its not fionas fault. ryan and i are still broekn up and he has decided that he doesnt want to go back out. he says his life is going in a new direction and its time for him to move on and away from me.

ryan said he didnt want to take me to batman. so last night he decides to go with fiona. he spends every fucking day with her, yet he hasnt seen me in 4 days and still refuses to come to my house or let me over to his. "oh i dont like her." whatever. he even tells her she looks cute right in front of me. EVERYONE likes fiona. huge breasts, short, ( Read more... )

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ryan and i broke up on the twelfth. lots of shit feeling. too bad ryan doesnt even care that we aren't together anymore. it doesnt even hurt him one tiny bit. how awful is that? we've been dating for 16 months and he feels not one damn iota of pain or loss. its like he never met me. *sigh* this hurts so badly. each second seems like a day and each ( Read more... )

yay ryan is moving in with me

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