i am in love with you ( Read more... )

i tried to hold you but you moved away
in a body not your own
with your hand still on my thigh
you turned your head up to the sky
i feel it is all my fault
seeing you lying on the floor
i cried
i cried
like i haven't before.

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i have had nightmares about this for months.

god, where do you exist.

I drew past the pen
on a thread of ferocious ink
a streaming black line
as the pen lagged behind
I twirled about the page
swirling esses and crossing tees and
zig zagging up and over
the printed page lines
I carefully landed on the
isolated dot of an eye
and I didn't look behind.

today I didn't want to get out of bed ( Read more... )

i can breathe ( Read more... )

everyday.

i still miss you.

everyday.

and then i am reminded.

everyday.

of how i cried.

everyday.

i don't know how to get out of this.

"you're still a good person. you're still good person."

the words dripped like tap on the sink.

if only you believed them.

"rescue me ( Read more... )

and this time, you'll dream of me ( Read more... )

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holy. yes. just another reason why I have the best job ever. secret talents.