Even more tired now. just got back from brittany. i swear that girl can make me love anything about life. her and terrence are great. i only hope i can find a guy like terrence someday. To find someone so willing to cater to my needs, emotionally and physically....what a dream ( Read more... )

Tired as crap today. Been feeling the sting of loneliness as of late. I am returning home in about 3 weeks for a few days and am scared of confronting the painful last 3 months. I just know even though it'll only be a 3 day visit that i will run into....you know and i don't feel like dealing with something that i believe is dead ( Read more... )

It's odd the times that God chooses to speak with you. All of this week i've been contemplating giving up my 10 year dream of becoming a doctor and just attempting to do something else. I asked God for direction on what i should do as i felt i could no longer do it and never would be able to handle the horrible pressure of it. Last night, my ( Read more... )

The health is still bad...and i'm getting really scared. It's frustrating to know that you were a triathlete your entire life so you were pretty active and had no problems with running a mile or two or running around playing...now i can't even BIKE the 1/2 mile of flatland to class without getting dangerously close to passing out ( Read more... )

Have you ever just been seized with an uncontrollable urge to curl into a ball and die? And yet there is no real reason for it...well...no main reason...just a bunch of little reasons...not in a suicidal way...like i would not end my own life...but if the higher power decided to revoke my life...that i would not mind it a bit? I fell that way and ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.