Grey skies dominated the day, keeping him indoors. The rain, while not a downpour, was enough to make him question his plans to go out. After hours of staring at rain clouds and puddles he decided life was too short to waste looking out of windows and thinking of what could have been. In his car, with the window down and a cigarette lit, he drove ( Read more... )

Despite what I may say or think, I actually need this pathetic and stupid Live Journal. I need somewhere that I can chronicle the random and often times ridiculous thoughts that come through my mind. Even though no one reads this, I still feel I need it sometimes. I think I need to use it more so my mind doesn't overflow so much ( Read more... )

My life is one of solitude. An uneasy balance that I've become accustomed to. People either don't want me, or don't have time for me, which I understand usually. There are late nights (like this one) when I lay awake and review things in my head. Days past and conversations had with people. I believe this is when I'm the most real. Late at night, ( Read more... )

Things to do before I die ( Read more... )

I don't think anything hurts more than seeing an old friend and nothing gets said. Though I guess she isn't even an old friend. More of a recent friend that I haven't seen a lot of lately. Honestly I don't know why it bothered me like it did. Should it have? I don't know. Our eyes met, for just a minute, our faces were blank. We both went about our ( Read more... )

I've always been one to say that you should never regret anything. At least, that used to be my opinion on things. Over the past couple of years I've realized that regret is going to happen. It's a natural feeling to regret things. It could be something you did or something you didn't do. Either way, everyone feels regret at some point in their ( Read more... )

The past couple of days have kind of sucked. Work has been stressing me out and my car has been acting up again. Everything, all my frustrations and anger just builds up, and I have no outlet really. I end up taking it out on my bosses at work or my mom at home. I don't mean to, but I get overwhelmed sometimes. It really sucks because I have ( Read more... )

A few days ago I came home from work and was talking to my mom. She told me that the previous night her and Jordan were talking about how they were proud of me for saving my money and being responsible, but that they thought I needed to get out more and have some fun. Basically, my mother told me I have no life and never get out or have fun. The ( Read more... )

There are times when I find myself wondering what I get all worked up about. Like when I get nervous, or anxious, or scared, or any other feeling like that. I wonder "why? why do I do this to myself?" I believe a lot of people do that though. Or so I assume. In my mind I tend to build things up until what was once a simple task is now a complex ( Read more... )

After a long hiatus the Icarus journal is finally updated with what I think is one of the best yet. Honestly, if you only ever read one thing written by me, read this. If you don't know the journal link or have no idea what I'm talking about, just click here and read what I have to say. Comment if you like something or want to ask me a question ( Read more... )