Thats nothing new. I keep thinking of just reaching out. But how do I know she wont hurt me like before? I know I hurt her but the words she said, how she reacted, it scared me. I know I did wrong, I know I smashed her heart and I know I deserved to be told off. Heck, I maybe deserved to be punched. She didn't do that though. She only went off ( Read more... )

still not dating ( Read more... )

Ok I'm going to give this Live Journal thing another try ( Read more... )

A perpetual state of lust has me in its grasp. I dream at night and day of pleasures of the skin that I can not find. I wish for hands to grasp me, allow me the feeling of lust and pleasure. I wish to release all control and be taken. I long for the screams to fight for release from my lips ( Read more... )

I began this journal for the release of parts of myself. There are things I must explore yet feel as though I am unable to out loud. I share these things to learn, and understand those parts of myself ( Read more... )

I swear... I wish I had the life i do in school. I hate not doing anything on the weekends and just sitting at home. How boring is that. I hate the fact that no one wants to do anything. I hate the fact that my Mother questions everything and anthing I do. I hate that i cant have the freedoms I have at school. Why cant I just go out and not have to ( Read more... )

Blindfold me and tie me up.. Ask me nothing but demand. I want passion and desire. Raw sex. I want to know I am the desire that you seek. I want to know that your passion comes from me, not my actions to please you ( Read more... )

But I will survive this. Allie would want me to put on the best face possible. I will now go home. I will not travel across country again to meet someone I met on line just to date them.

she broke my heart. I came from across the country and she ripped my heart out and then left it there to bleed. How could she do that to me when I just lost Allie?

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