no matter how hard i try i still can't fathom the transactional interpretation. many worlds and copenhagen were more mystical and elegant but somewhat disproved by afshar's experiment, at least in the way they were presented, with the role of the observer and such. they're easier to understand for me at least, but that doesn't make them true, and ( Read more... )

i'm in manchester massachusetts by the sea. ahhhh.

RIP poe. you were the best kitty anyone could ever know. i miss you terribly

i have survivor's guilt. it could have been me. it almost WAS me. why wasn't it me?

i'm sorry i cut you out of my life. i had to. i had to stop doing drugs. i couldn't have them around me. i hope you understand. you must know i still loved you.

RIP dave, i miss you like crazy.

a lot has happened. i have a lot of pain in my abdomen and have to take percocet. i was hospitalized for awhile and got put on clozaril, which is a miracle drug! i love my fiance dearly, and i'm over a year clean. my life is in a great place now, except for the pain, which should go away with this new medicine we found. love you all <3

i'm engaged to the most amazing man in the world
i'm on clozaril and doing much better
i'm painting and writing again
i'm clean 10 months to the day
life is fingertips away from perfect.

the funny farm isn't all that funny. and where are all the goats?

mina, my beloved kitten, is missing :(

off to Mass Achoo! Sets (or mass a chew sets, both being legitimate spellings, though i'm sure you already know THAT.) gotta wake up at 5:30 am to get on the arrow plain. or a row plain, a plain that rows though the sky via MAGIC

no matter if you are crazy or not, your response to the question "are you crazy?" will always be "no." after all, if you aren't, why say you are. and if you are, you're probably too lost to realize it. then, there's the limbo inbetween us, where i forget.