So yesterday had to be the shittest day ever. It was Brendan Taylors 1 year of his suicide and I just sat at home. I wanted to be around friends but it didnt happen. I just sat in my room all night feeling like complete crap and it really sucked ( Read more... )

I can not belive it's already been 1 year since we lost one of the most amazing people EVER. I still miss him like crazy. I will NEVER forget about him and the person he was. He would ALWAYS have your back if you were his friend no matter what. I can honestly say Brenden was one of the best humans I have EVER known. Nobody will ever catch up to him ( Read more... )

So I am SADLY back from California. I wish we didnt have to come back. It was perfect up there. Weather was awsome, people were so nice and the beach was just perfect. We're already planing on going back next month! Hopefully for more then just a weekend haha

So it is official that I am going to see how long I can go now without drinking. I know you all are laughing at me cause of it. I realize I have a problem with it now and I want to stop it. So, Im gonna see how long I can go without having one drink now. Wish me luck!

I dont know what to do anymore...
I just cant take it now.
My life is shit and it's not going to be getting any better.
I miss her SOOOO much but she is happeier with her new life now and I hate it but she deserves it.
Im unhappy with EVERYTHING
Maybe Im just gonna take off for a while. Dont know where and dont know how but I will.

I dont know what to feel anymore.
I forgot what the word happiness even means anymore.
Someone please help me get out of this hell running through my head...

So, I am no longer going to Florida for the summer now.
WHO WANTS TO TAKE A ROAD TRIP TO CALI?!?!?!?!??

Lastnight was a little crazy hahahaha drunkeness everywhere ( Read more... )

So I think I drank a tad too much lastnight hahahahahah
I think a bottle each of Jameson Irsish Whiskey, Malibu, JD, and 100 Proof So Co is a little too much in 2 hours lol

The show lastnight was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much fucking fun!!! Holy shit I had a damn good time! I wasnt even drunk either! hahahahaha ( Read more... )