haven't written in the longest time ( Read more... )

till I'm home, safe and sound. Surrounded by the most important people in my life. It'll seem as if everything's back to normal...the only difference is that i'll be a lot happier ( Read more... )

so, the tickets are bought..jan. 18th-24th in el paso =]

wifey will be there!!!!! yAY!!!!!!

life...its returning to normal.
i get to see my best friend in the whole wide world soon enough.
2 more weeks...
and nicks going with me....
i get to see family...MY BROTHER! yay!

i'm coming home..
i can't believe it.

...
so the holidays are a bit different this year.

no family around except my sister and brother.

no mommy, no bob, no bryan, no cousins, no BCF, no wifey...

all i pretty much have here is nick and his family.
that's where i feel at home...

january= el paso.
i can't wait.
tickets next week.

so i'm not going home for the holidays....
it sucks...
i STILL don't have my car...
i'm pissed...
I feel out of place and it's as if I'm in the way...
i'm hurt...
no Nick till Monday night...
i'm sad...
i miss all my friends and family back home..
i'm depressed...
i have too much on my mind..
i'm frustrated...

life......it's the fuckin devil

i just had one of the best weekends of my life.

XoXoXo all for my nicholas.

p.s

frustration gets the best of me..
fuck family...well today anyways.

why can't we just be friends...it seems so hard at times...
the memories all come back..
all i can think of are the good ones...

LOVE gets in the way of everything..
:-/

my saturday night will be filled with a pack of cigarettes all to myself...sitting outside....listening to music....pretending that you would rather be here with me...than out with your friends....(for the second night in a row ( Read more... )

i'm not fully there yet....but i will be...

give me time...

i got 8 1/2 smiles from you today..
it made my heart melt...

along with a sweet dreams, and XoXo

so i guess "go ahead and go out with mikey" means....you better not fucking go out with him Rebecca ( Read more... )