I am posting on my livejournal. Therefore, one might conclude that I am feeling sorry for myself. Good deal.

I think there must be something wrong with me. I haven't been able to prove myself wrong on that count yet.

See, what my problem is is that when people to put the other 50% into my relationships with then, I tend to make up for it by doing double load. But lately I've been rethinking this policy. If you can't be assed to talk to me as before, like a friend, when she's around, then don't bother throwing me bread crumbs when she's busy or gone, or you ( Read more... )

A lot of the time now I feel perfectly fine or at least passably well. I don't walk about sullen all day. But every now and then I start sinking and I think this is possibly one of those times. I try to be pretty positive and stop telling myself that I suck. Sometimes that works and sometimes it fails miserably. It's pretty pathetic, but I'm ( Read more... )

I haven't felt an urge to write in this thing in a while. I don't know why. I do shit, and I feel shit, and I suppose that's what this thing's for, but lately I haven't really felt the need to divulge my life's story on an electronic journal. And I suppose I still don't because otherwise I'd just tell the entire story right in this box so ( Read more... )

I pose a question to you. I am sick of my hair. It is time for a change. I am considering a)layering the ends, or b)layering it total. Would this look good?

Remember, I know this is crazy for you white folks to believe, but it's not going to grow back any time in the near future. As in for a few years. So dear god, if it sounds ugly, just ( Read more... )

I think that I will get to see Rainer Maria next week with Rachel so that's cool and makes my week better.

You know, I don't do a terrible lot of actual angsty bitching to people. If I do it, I do it here, or I seethe inwardly. But I typically don't look to actual people for support on a conversational basis because most people are prats anyway and it really just makes me feel worse. But for heaven's sake, if I tell you that I'm upset, could you ( Read more... )

I try really hard to be angry at racist people but the racist people always win.

Good god I hate pretentious, self-absorbed people.

Anyways, off that subject because it's less relevant to me than the fact that I have really super awesome friends.

Thank you guys a lot for an excellent birthday. =) I am enjoying all of my gifts.