i felt the baby move. we were talking- mom E and Theresa (who is being induced on thursday) and i DISTINCTLY felt the baby move. it was a watery twist and flop and then a bump. it was like a flip and a kick!!!!!! it was fluttery and soft and felt like when you are on a raft and someone swims underneath you and flips or something. oh my goodness i ( Read more... )

waiting on lover to come home. although "home" has become a hotel room, or a friends home (if we are lucky) for now as we travel all over for football season. i miss him so much, and it was only this morning that i saw him. he has become so much a part of me. it is unbelievable. right now im in a mansion in south carolina, with a chandelier and an ( Read more... )

easter is coming in fifteen minutes! the day that Christ triumphed over death and sin!
these are the sweetest words lately:
"Death is swallowed up in victory.
O death, where is your victory?
O death, where is your sting?"

i am free because of tomorrow. what a day of amazing grace!

i dreamed i had my hair all shaved underneath, and it was hot pink and purple. i hated it. i kept missing all these classes. english, i am apparently enrolled in english and havent been in weeks. bad dreams, but twelve hours of sleep. i was tired ( Read more... )

i dreamed she was diving down into the center of the water, where there was a cave. and inside the cave was what was most beautiful, and everything that lived inside glowed. and if you saw it, it was a miracle and so beautiful. i wasnt ready to see these things. i was afraid, but my friend, ashley, who has died... she went ( Read more... )

the funeral was yesterday. they put her in the ground but it wasnt her. this gave me so much peace. the pastor spoke about how the bible sometimes refers to the body as a tent. that our life isnt our bodies, but our life dwells inside our bodies on earth ( Read more... )

i do still believe in that veil. and that behind is there is beauty. i know that the face of the veil now is terrible. that it is death and misery and tragedy. before now, i imagined the veil as a thin white whisper of a thing. that the glory shone through like light in a window. it was easy ( Read more... )

in fifth grade we were walking to our parents cars. across the street. looking both ways. we were young. it was the last day of school and she gave me a ring, it was her grandmothers and very special. it was because i was her best friend. it had a purple stone. its my birthstone. but shes dead ( Read more... )

i am grumpy. i was just a jerk to my friend on the phone. ive been cleaning for a few hours, and everything is still piled up so high. i have a new job, that i love. i need a shower. i am ocd ( Read more... )

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