its a weird thing. summer is just about at a close. it felt really good to move out of the parents. i feel really refreshed and ready for the next step. i have three main goals for the next semester: grades, working out, girls ( Read more... )

so the time is almost upon me and it feels so bittersweet. i at last move out of this town, well until next summer possibly. there are so many things i wanted to do this summer back here in merrimack, so many changes in my life that i wanted to make but getting out might be for the best ( Read more... )

Well I am home for a little bit. It was so much fun I cannot explain...needless to say we taught a bunch of other people how to drink and then drink some more. I have one more day of training back here in Stratford and then its packing. Yup its official I am moving back to Durham. I did a lot of thinking while on my trip and sitting on the ( Read more... )

so Wisconsin has been a good time. kinda upset that i am coming home soon. we leave on the 20th, then its the last 2 days of OCS...then DURHAM!!! hopefully.... i feel a little upset that i will not be returning home. i really wanted to have a big summer and reconnect. nice thing is that i will finally have some money and i will hopefully make ( Read more... )

So not everything has gone to plan so far this summer, but i am not saying that is a bad thing. I came home to find out I have no job here because the one I was supposed to get fell through. I have little money in the bank so i am in need big time for a job. I was going to re-enlist and get $15k but they changed how you get it so that screws me ( Read more... )

the more time that passes the more i just don't know what i am doing wrong. we had a cocktail tonight and i invited a girl that i like...too bad last night she tells me she has been dating some dude for a lil while and has been meaning to tell me. we hung out for a while before that and had some good times. nothing serious and nothing happened ( Read more... )

somethings that are broken cannot be fixed. not now and not like this. its a weak way to try so why should i bother when i never did anything wrong in the first place. im past it but still it matters. try again cause i dont care at least that might show something a lil stronger than this go around.

not to sound like im crying but why is it that whenever im doing good the worse things happen? I get a call from my mom a couple days ago saying that my aunt moved to florida. then i see my sister and she tells me that my aunt is going to die in the next couple of days because her breast cancer treatments just arent working. yesterday my dad ( Read more... )

someone posed a question today. we were talking about the human mind and the differences between men and women when it comes to happiness. we were asked to name a time when we were truly happy. i sat there thinking and thinking. the girls named off graduation, boyfriends, sports, getting particular cloths. the other guys it was mostly sports, ( Read more... )

so i have been doing a lot of thinking again...i know dangerous shit happens when i do that ( Read more... )