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random post
i haven't been here for a long time and i'm sure no one reads this anymore but i have to vent about twilight. why? because it's 6:04 p.m. and i'm at work bored and i was just thinking about it ( Read more... ) -
because this is what i do
because it's what i'm good at. i'm not very good at feeling the feelings themselves, but i'm really good at putting them down on paper. or virtual paper ( Read more... ) -
"there is no book on parenting..." or living. (or, rebuild)
i have been trying to right all the wrongs in my life lately. as much as i possibly can, anyway. i'm trying to be nicer to those who i haven't been incredibly kind to, and though some aren't deserving of such treatment, i don't rightly care. because my behavior is a reflection of self. i want to be a better person.
"It's okay to lose your pride ( Read more... ) -
i'm baaaaaaaack!
i always am...
just rereading and for a minute, i almost stopped because i have this fear that all those feelings might come back, but i know that they won't and i'd like to take this opportunity to acknowledge how amazing that feels.
for one, i'd like to thank myself for being there for myself. i knew i'd pull through in the end, and for a while, i ( Read more... ) -
you'd better bend before i go
i'm not going to thailand anymore.
i had a huge fight with my parents because i'm nearly 22 years old and i have to be home by 10:30 p.m. or else i am selfish and don't care about anyone or anything but myself.
the truth of the matter is that they are only happy when i am completely miserable, sitting on my couch crying my eyes out over a boy, ( Read more... ) -
i need to remember
i just came back from what is probably most definitely the most amazing vacation i've ever been on. i need to NOT forget what an amazing time i had, so i'm just going to type a whole bunch of nonsense for my own laughing purposes, beginning with the most important of them all, but other than that, in no particular order whatsoever:
<3 If I turn ( Read more... ) -
today is the greatest
i woke up. and i had 2 missed calls and a voicemail. not happy ones, because apparently, i forgot that i was scheduled to work today 8-4. but that isn't happening.
i am so relaxed. i love waking up to the sound of rain.
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jake is walking across my kitchen floor
i had a fantastic dream last night. unfortunately, i woke up and john mayer's phone number was no longer in my hand. hah! i crack myself up. more laaaaater. -
i guess i've been pretty pathetic
because everyone seems to think that i can't handle something or other. like i'm so fragile, i might break. which is fine because i suppose that's the way i've been acting lately. i know this summer wasn't what i expected it to be and i was miserable for the beginning of it, but i am more than fine now. here's a word to the wise ( Read more... ) -
gotta write...
cause it's in my head, and writing is the only way it gets out. so, basically, thanks but no, thanks. i don't need to throw myself a pity party. and i certainly don't need to make excuses to see anybody who doesn't make any effort whatsoever to see me. i just don't give a shit anymore. it used to upset me so much, but now it's just annoyance ( Read more... )