*bangs head against wall*

If it's bad now, I can't wait to see how I am tomorrow!

I can do this.

Sure, I can.

He's just my father, my FATHER, the one and only, after all.

Oh, god.

I can just kick his ass, now that I'm older, right?

I mean if he tries anything...

STOP FREAKING OUT!

And now I'm talking to myself...

o_O

It's driving me insane! Get over it, me! Get over it!

Yeah, like that's gonna work.

o_o

*paces back and forth*

AM I DOING THE RIGHT THING?!

O_O

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