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heres an example of why i suck as a human being.
so im not usually a posessive friend
i was when i was younger, but never in a you can only be my friend kind of way. more like im kind of a sensitive person, and i like to feel loved and appreciated by people that i care about. so yoav is probably my best friend. he knows me really well, and hes very ( Read more... )

yesterday my grandfather died.
i was at hannahs house and i called my dad to see if i could stay out later.
he says "i dont think tonights a good night for that? "
" why not " i ask
" zaide died"
and i started to cry
im glad that i could cry because
if i didnt cry i would be a monster
i was outside crying to my boyfriend i said
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people surprise me sometimes ( Read more... )

pastorius park
the rock
blue bell
the portajohn
sad rory
my house
swish

This week: Highs and Lows

Highs
10. hanging out with evan in the sense that i remember at the perse it took like 6 months for someone to ask me to hang out.
9. my still life
8. my radio city painting
7. my 6 month anniversary!!
6. the sex board at school
5. the "making out" agenda meeting
4. realizing that in all likelihood i have between 10 and 11 weeks ( Read more... )

sometimes i hate melodrama.
but i do tend towards it.
but whatever i have a right to it.
so my week in short:
10 HIGHS:
10. My stellar curry
9. My rose painting
8. Drawing with charcoal
7. My school
6. peaches
5. jakes sense of direction
4. my pod (always a high)
3. looking forward to the concert tonight
2. the clove cigarette
1. purim

10 LOWS
10. monday morning
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a stream of conciousness on a sunday night
my breaths are short and steady
and if i didnt think theyd hear
id step outside
and have a smoke so i could chill
my baby's still out
and i dont know where
and i could pretend im not scared
but i am
and i wish i could learn how to
trust
and i wish i could just fall asleep
and i wish i could not change
or ( Read more... )

long live
warm days
weekends
good music
good people
red stripe
smiles
free ultra light cigarettes
moochers
love
bad jokes
car rides
cheese hoagies
wawa
cheap coffee
jamming
bad video games
mustard fights
acceptance
good report cards
money
safety
danger
gummies
little kids
evan ch and taia as a married couple
mulch
algae
fireplaces

but
fuck the police

Graffiti Wars- French Piecing vs. Illadelph Piecing

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