let it all drop

[ai_13_7000]

I've kept my mind clear of her the best i can.
i am trying to forget all about her lips because they're not mine anymore.
i am trying to forget the love i had for her and how the way her face made me feel so warm.
but when i go to bed she is fucking there to wake me up
i want to sleep, but my god damn mind is too restless to allow it.
and every dream i

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[kaeldarkfyre]

:/ To an extent, I know how you feel. I know what it's like to be kept awake by such things, and how a place can haunt you. I wish there was something I could say to help, but I am not that naive.

[jilldohertyyyyy]

I wanted to call you back last night but my mom said I'm no longer allowed to speak with you. She took away my phone and I literally had to beg her not to call you last night because she heard the message you left me and wanted you to leave me alone. I didn't want it to come to that. I didn't want to lose communication with you, but it seems I have no other choice. Yes, I chose this path to go on but it wasn't an easy choice. I still think about you often, almost all the time. I don't want to say that i'm sorry things are the way they are because I know you won't believe me but I am. I didn't want to get attached to another human being for an extremely long time after being with you, but sometimes you don't chose those things. I didn't lie to you when I told you I was in love with you, because I loved you with every inch of my body. I don't know why that wasn't enough and why that didn't save us but it happened. I didn't want to have the last words you ever say to me be 'I despise you' but thats something I have to accept. If that was

[ai_13_7000]

i really hope one day you will stop lying to yourself and grow up.

[jilldohertyyyyy]

I'm done being civil towards you if you're just going to be an ass. I'm pretty sure you need to take a nice long look in the mirror.

[ai_13_7000]

civil? you've never even faced me jill, you just left and pretended that i never existed.