Why I'm Ready to Come Home

[aidansgreenenvy]

The fact is that I'm not sure how I feel at all. My emotions have become a more confusing landscape to me than they ever have been before-even being able to tell whether I'm plain out happy or sad has become difficult, because I find myself, rather, in a zone of indifference or at least denial

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Burque ain't so bad...

[lethallemon]

We have been friends for almost six years. Six goddamn years, Mr. Kiley. That's a pretty long time, considering it's more than a fourth of our life lived so far. Nobody you'll meet in Colorado will be able to say that (not for another six years, anyway... but by then, I'll be at 12 years, so they can still suck it).

I suspect you'll be pretty happy with the results of your return, as everyone who's been missing you will probably shit themselves at the first sight of you. I really miss you, and can't wait for you to get back.

P.S. It's okay about the Melissa Ferrick thing. I can't listen to her and not want to go find some chick to date, then dump, then write a song about. Ani, she's always been a whiny bitch.

[sadbumblepuppy]

yeah...I agree with the appreciation of home thing. I have to say that being away with no really good friends has certainly given me a better view of New Mexico. I left Abq so ready to leave, come back for a semester and then leave again. And I'm still going to do it, because I don't really want to go to UNM, but I think I'm going to do it with a lot more appreciation for what I'm leaving. I didn't think that being away from all family and contact with anyone that I have any history with would effect me as much as it did, but its totally changed my perspective on my home. Albuquerque definitely isn't the shit hole that people make it out to be.

[muffinoftruth]

Cheers to that.

I knew I would miss ABQ, but being away has definitely made me appreciate home that much more. I plan on finishing school out here in Mass., but I will really make the most of my time back in New Mexico.

[chaudfeu]

I know it's difficult when who you're dating is really the only one you know well, so you spend *all* your time together. You need to outline some personal space for your sanity.

Since our schedules have changed I miss seeing Kyle as much as I used to, but sometimes it can be a nice break to have a night alone to listen to my crappy music and watch my crappy shows and play my crappy games. And it's not selfish, or bad for the relationship to enjoy or NEED that. Besides, it makes the time you do have together all the more valuable.

hi

[aidansgreenenvy]

Hey-I went hunting for you here on livejournal. Do you have myspace or a new AIM sn or something? I miss talking to you especially since we're in the same city but I seem to never get the chance to call. aidanpk@gmail.com

[lianarosanadana]

Just remember that you can't rely on other people for your emotions. I'm glad you and Bryan are doing well, but seeing him shouldn't be the only thing that makes you happy. I don't know if that's the case, but yea, just be careful with your heart