"I've loved so many times and I've drowned them all, From their coral graves, they rise up when darkness falls, With their bones they'll scratch the window, I hear them call, "'Don't know what you asked for.' " -jeff buckley"

Couldn't have said it better.

 Knott's Scary Farm with my Vampire was freakin amazing. I get so caught up in her. And there is no need to be any other person than myself....the problem?....Time goes by way too fast. ::sigh::

 I found my keepsake box and it was filled with stupid things. Words and dumb little symbols that I put so much meaning to once upon a time. They are pieces of shit now. Nothings. Lies. When am I going to get rid of them ( Read more... )

I'm such a roller-coaster.

That day the rain washed away the symbols of her in the earth
She cried the image of the girl out of her eyes
Then she took a shower and cleansed her body of her touch
She cut herself and bled out the girl that ran through her veins and insides
But she couldn't reach her soul
And it was then that she realized how incapable she was of ever loving

 Why is it that the people so disconnected from a situation seem to have the right answer all along? Maybe because the simplicity of a thing is what it really is. That right choices should be based on the simple most emotionally removed picture. They all told me. Deep down I knew they were right. I chose to ignore the simplicity and engage in ( Read more... )

Universal Studios today with the fam was genuinely fun. I loved it. The mummy ride is rad! The tram is always amazing. Jerassic park took my breath yet again. and the guys from the prop show were making fun of my devil horns >=)

To top off my life I feel so much for her and find myself opening up. Yayyy me.

 There are times when I just want to give up...I hate my mind. I've fucked up every relationship I have EVER had...the list goes on. What is wrong with me?

 I will make myself learn this thing called trust.

I'm sick of everyone fucking it up for me. But I will not sink as low to not believe in it at all.

It takes work. Give me time and reassurence.

I'm fucking low.

Something bad is going to happen.