Demons beg me to question
Knowledge is destructive and evil
But questioning is valuable
Where to stop?
There is no end
Truth cannot be pure
Search. Search. Search.
Find through negative analysis'
Ignorance is hiding
So keep finding nothing
Taunt your truths
Cross out contradictions
until nothing is left
Or just be aware of how false this life is.

I am completely in like with my winter grass

<3 xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox  

 Well, I have to appear in court sometime in December....consuming alcohol at the LA county fair at the age of nineteen is supposedly a crime. At least they didn't take me to jail. I have quite the record now. Can anyone sense the sarcastic tone? blah...they would ask me to see my ID, search me, sit me over in the corner, take my fucking picture ( Read more... )

Falling for anyone is so overrated and cliche.
Gag me with a spoon. =O 0=====

that is a spoon, not a penis....just to clear things up.

 I'm getting sick. School and work are both stressing me out. I feel so raw. I have four cold sores (only get them when I'm stressed out big time) They hurt like a betch. Haven't been writing. Everything gives me a headache.

I start my second year of college tomorrow. I'm nervous and probably won't get any sleep (not unusual but still...)

My Schedual: 16 units

8:00-9:05am Economics 
9:15-10:20 Study of Modern Science Fiction
10:30-11:35 Interview with the Reaper (a class on the phylosophy of death....I'm sooo excited about this one)
11:45-12:50 History of Physics.

yeah, that ( Read more... )

 Every time I feel like I'm getting somewhere. Every time I open up a little more. Every time. I know what a relationship is like. And I know drama like no other. But this is by far the worst ( Read more... )

It's what kept me here all this time; Don't hate it.

Substances revive me
I walk now with content
I've tried it all today
And I've finally brought myself 
to be just okay
Abel to live this way
I'm normal now
Look at my blank eyes,
They are brilliant
You see past this somber stage
But I've finally contained the rage
I crawl down and up this spiral without a ( Read more... )

 People fucking piss me off. Surprise surprise. Grow the fuck up and get over it, what are we 12? AHHHHHHHHHHHH

And I'm starting to become careless within it all. I'm saying things that I need to restrain myself from saying but when I am so irritated I can't. Grrrr I'm such an ass hole to people who care.

Today I feel good...it's been rare as of late. But for some reason I was abel to sleep the whole night through and woke up in a fantastic mood. Watched 50 First Dates on TV and ate my left over pizza with a cup of coffee =) (Yum! garlic and coffee taste in my mouth) Read a little and now I'm listening to best of Alanis Morissette...haven't heard ( Read more... )