technically, i should be packing right now. i'm actually mostly finished, i just feel like there are a lot of loose ends that need to be tied. technically. actually. mostly. bleh. why do i always have to qualify everything? it's funny...to recognize a thing like that but keep it. it's hard to just write sometimes ( Read more... )

one of my favorite things to compulsively obsess about is What Things Mean. to do that on a deep level with full analytic thrust, you've really got to stick with your head. you know, really think it to death. think it so far that a thick fog looms between what you've decided and what's going on in your heart and your guts. that way you have several ( Read more... )

i couldn't fall asleep last night. i couldn't stop thinking and thinking and thinking, sometimes taking myself down steep slopes to places i don't want to go. i ended up putting on some music...sort of an eclectic mix of things like antony and the johnsons, the rolling stones, the grates, rilo kiley, bruce springsteen, and mecca normal. some of my ( Read more... )

today my dad and i caused a coffee !explosion! in the kitchen. i've never seen anything quite like it. luckily no one was hurt, and the incident left me giggling and chuckling for the rest of the afternoon. later we watched a documentary on surfing and i almost cried at one point. is that normal ( Read more... )

there are less people in my house and at the office for the rest of the week than there normally are. it's made me realize how sometimes absence can fill a space more noticeably than idle presence can. it's funny to hear silence/the absence of sound ( Read more... )

so much of what has happened the last couple of weeks deserves words, but i'm having this problem. it reminds me of the feeling i had as a little kid when i was told to clean my room and would be so overwhelmed by the heaving mass of little things that i couldn't pick up one toy at a time until the room was clean. mindful of how much there was, i ( Read more... )

i saw my old family doctor yesterday to get some medication issues straightened out. i hadn't been to him in a long time, and my parents have recently moved away from the area. going back to my hometown is feeling weirder and weirder each time, in the respect that i have very few ties there anymore, and this visit really brought it home in a way ( Read more... )

i haven't written here in a while. i feel more like talking than writing, and more like sleeping than staying awake, so this will be brief. it's hot here and my cold shower didn't help much. now i'm listening to some kiki and herb and contemplating watching 'willow' from my bed...bryce brought it to me to watch as i fell asleep tonight, but i'm not ( Read more... )

i set my alarm to go off at 7:15 this morning so that i could go for a run before work. when it went off i hit snooze several times and finally switched it off, drifting back to sleep for another hour. for that hour that i was going to be running i had a dream that involved me attending some sort of conference at a hotel with a big group of other ( Read more... )

my camera really doesn't do this justice...but this is the sunset i saw from my house tonight. so eerily flying saucer-like....and absolutely gorgeous. often it's things like this that make me ache for oregon when i'm in new york. it's things like this that make me wonder if i could ever actually stay in the city forever...so much of me needs skies ( Read more... )