It's almost my favorite holiday... Halloween ( Read more... )

I watching twilight on FX.
It's 11:44 pm.
I'm on my last glass of wine, BV cabernet.
ehhh... it's not the best.
My favorite at the moment is J. Lohr Cabernet.
yummmmmm.
It's like $15-$16 at Publix.
$11 at Wal-mart, yaaaaaaaay. 
I'm going home again, soon. 
Literally cannot wait. 
Gav is upstairs sleeping so he can wake up early for golf. 
Which, to be fair, ( Read more... )

I'm back from the most perfect weekend.
I cannot explain to you why.
Why seeing all those people in that place was amazing.
I left them. 
I made a conscious decision to leave everything I knew to be home.
I left my friends for an uncertain future.
I don't know how to continue this so I'm leaving this post.
Goodnight

It's the only word I think really explains it. ANNOYED ( Read more... )

Oh God,
What is this?
What is the source of all the tears?
What is the meaning of this deep sense of loneliness? 
If I were to believe all that was said I would write it off as an over-reaction
"you're just drunk from all the wine"
maybe.
But does that make the feeling any less real?
I feel like I'm losing grasp on my perception of everything
Apart from you ( Read more... )

I have body issues. I don't know when it happened. It's really funny too because I actually used to think to myself "thank goodness I can eat what I want and not feel bad about it ( Read more... )

This morning I decided I wanted to go to the Farmer's Market in downtown Sarasota. It's pretty good, but I do miss the stalls of Jacksonville. More Raw Vegan things there but this one has a great produce stand. I got in my car around 10am and it didn't start. Great. My heart sank. I got out and popped the hood thinking that might help or something ( Read more... )

"Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement. Nothing can be done without hope and confidence."

Sarasota is very seasonal. And very old. Especially when it comes to working in a restaurant. Right now it's not peak season so my job at Ruth's is on hold until probably November -ish ( Read more... )

It's such a strange feeling. It's not the first time I've dealt with it. It's so overwhelming, too. I'm struggling here ( Read more... )