It has been so long, my secret public journal ( Read more... )

I'm so bitter and burnt out.

Oh raymond, I fall so hard for you, every time you act like you're two years old.

Grow up and give me my CDs back.

[the best part is knowing steven would never do anything as remotely stupid as what raymond has done. it makes me smile, big.]

makin' makin' makin'
fuckin ciggy smoke
choke!
look like super whale
are you the walrus?
natural SPRING water!
motha fuckin' hair DYE [die!]
and death be lonely
what hair pills?
Oh, nioxin! biotin, vitamin C,
...valium?! zanybars!!!
*diamond club*
drunkest asshole of the NIGHT!

an outlet in a sea of water and i am a minerature whale, swimming towards the surface. distracted by sea turtles with glitz and glam glittered shells, and indescribably drawn to a dark cave near the bottom. entering the cave i am the brightest thing in there but time got warped and before i knew it i was just as dull as they were, and had been ( Read more... )

i think my favorite part about the drug was honestly believing that i was the light of the world, God's chosen child. the rest of the time spent in sobriety i was just trying to talk myself into believing. but on this, this i really felt it. but something that felt so real was only fleeting in the end of it all ( Read more... )

if this were the end, this is what it would look like ( Read more... )

I miss him.

Yeah yeah yeah, everyone's heard it before. Whatever.

So i was thinking about making this my main journal and putting sea_wench_miffy into hibernation.

A subject to be thought on for sure.

once again, untitled
airen skam

kisses in the crawl space,
kisses on your floor
i know i'll never have you, dear,
but you'll never have me more.
it's gone past depressing now,
into a more exciting realm
of adventure, and moral justification,
emotions are a mere sport,
skin is the weapon of choice

maybe it's okay because
seeing you now would be a ( Read more... )