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fragile things, need special handling... 

things were more laid back and things didn't eat at you like they do now? i find myself on fire alot lately and its hard to control...

..i spend alot of time lost in chaos. it can be so overwhelming that its like a thick buzz pounding in my ears. i wake up most of the time not knowing where i am or how i got there. my heart racing fast and then reality sets in.  i walk down streets that don't exist, and try to go to places that were around through my travels. moving constantly  ( Read more... )

.. i had a flashback while sitting quietly alone..
medusa bed head in the mornings. lost in your dark eyes, 
and sometimes i miss waking up beside you. god i miss waking up beside you.
 but those are memories..easy to relive over and over without you...

..what if i came here to tell you that i wish i would have left some kind of piece of me in every place ive ever been?
like under the carpet, in the wall, behind the toilet, in the dishwasher...etc. i would have left mostly a trail of writings written on fancy papers..maybe a current thought or feeling..its never too late to start, right?

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