Im laying thier thinking..completely innocent thoughts of how my mother is getting my vodka for my birthday and my thoughts move from one place to another.Thinking of my favorite band.Thinking of hot guys...And then my thoughts they land on him.My mind scrolls his picture infront of my eyes.Baby blue eyes 165 pounds of absolute beauty.Completely un ( Read more... )

It occurs to me that i havent lived since i realized he isnt coming back

I wish that i had something to say.Behind these walls that ive built up so suddenly.And behind all the strength i wish i had.Somewhere inside me is the same girl ive always bin.Dying to die.And living for not reason.I guess i dont care anymore if im alive or not.I dont really feel to much anymore.Im so cold inside.That no one will ever chisel their ( Read more... )

"some days go by i wish i were famous or mabe relgius"
Today i felt so helpless and so emotional that all i could do was cry.Everything has just gotten so much worse.My life is going nowhere way to fast.And I do not act nor feel old enough to deal with bills,and jobs,and living with a man i dont really love anymore.I skipped my teenage years and ( Read more... )

basicaly i started this because my friends are here and woulnt it be more convient for them?I hate LJ,Alrihgt im loyal to TOD all the way.Anyway i wont write much in here its more for a friends list type of thing