I'm sorry I haven't gotten a chance to write since I've gotten back from camping - I've been busy, what with packing for CTY and all. I'll try to write there, but probably won't have much success. See you all in three weeks!

I like night so much better - anytime I see myself where I'd be happy, it's always in the dark. Plus I look ten times better in low lighting.

I went to Eric's party and saw Andrew. He may be in love with a pretty Greek girl who isn't allowed to date for another nine months, but he did come stand right next to me and watch me while I spoke to Beckie, so at least I think he appreciates my conversation or my appearance. I really don't know what more to ask of him. I think he deserves ( Read more... )

Someday I'm going to find someone who does not think I'm too pure to hurt. Actually physically hurt. Just the thought of it terrifies me ( Read more... )

I wonder if you're considered obsessive-compulsive when you think of doing something dirty, and have to get up to take a shower.I experienced the most wonderful fireworks ever tonight - I went to a carnival with some of my friends, and when it got dark, everyone went and sat around the baseball field to watch the fireworks. The wind was blowing, so ( Read more... )

Why don't they sell calendars for the year we're currently in? What if we're all exterminated before 2004? What then? I don't need a calendar for the future, I need one now ( Read more... )

Why?
Why what? Why do little girls starve themselves until they disappear?
Yes.
Yes what?
Yes. Why?
Why. That is a question. Why does a virgin gasp when she's first entered? Why do trees scream when you pull out their branches? Why do babies cry when you kill their mothers?
Well, why?
Because it's the same thing.
I was going to post a list of all ( Read more... )

Today was horribly hot again, I'm so thankful I got to stay inside with the wonderful cooling machine and shiver.
My body keeps shaking more frantically, because each morning I wake up it's closer. And by the time it comes I will have some sort of whole-body failure.
Hurry hurry hurry, but not too fast. Because I know the end will come, and that ( Read more... )

I bought the niftiest boxers today - the say NO! all over them, and then in the dark they say YES! Hehe...
Love is so over-idealized. I'm not sure it's possible for anyone to really understand love, or if it even exists, she said. But as far as I can see, its mussing people's hair and wonderful hellos and maybe a little biting to keep it fresh.

I wore a very pretty flowery skirt to the mall today - I felt very feminine. In the music store, a bunch of boys followed me around. I assume one of the must have liked me, because they kept whispering, "Go talk to her". I almost went up to the guy and talked to him myself, but I felt shy, and anyway, it was enough to know that I looked pretty ( Read more... )