Here I go again. The yo yo feeling is back.. Maybe it never left in the first place. Why does love hurt? I don't think that love should hurt. It should be a wonderful experience, an experience that you welcome with open arms. But my experience is not that. My experience is of hurt and pain...and more hurt. It doesn't make any sense that I miss him ( Read more... )

I wish that i could say that i knew exactly what i was doing. I wish that i could say that all of the decisions that i make are the right ones. I know that love can blind people, I just wonder if im being blinded by love. I surely hope not, but i can't pass that up as a possibility. I really feel that sticking with him is the right thing to do. ( Read more... )

I feel like i've had my heartbroken all over again. I really hate this feeling. Me and Mandi had a nice little talk today. She really feeled me in about the whole situation. I feel like i've been used in the worst way. This feels so much worst then my situation with Joel. I think im just going to give up on relationships and dating and focus on my ( Read more... )

I feel SO bad for people that go to jail that don't really belong there. I know your probably thinking well if they are in jail that means that they belong there. Well I don't think thats true. Ok well i know that Dennis isn't perfect, but cause he's in jail he's been labeled as a jailbird and woman beater. Which is SO sad! Things are bad already ( Read more... )

I'm awaiting my mediciated induced sleep. I wish that it would come soon, cause I'm like going out of my mind with worry at this point. Karma is well we all know what it is. I just feel SO bad for him cause his WHOLE career is on the line at this point. If things don't go right then he can kiss the military and CJ goodbye. Its SO unfortunate, To go ( Read more... )

Not being able to tell my cousin that i've changed my mind about dennis is so strange. Thats because typically i talk to her about any and everything. It's not often that i withhold info from her. But I just don't feel like i can tell her this just yet. I have NO clue y that is, maybe its cause i feel bad about keeping her in the dark. Or it could ( Read more... )

I really fell like a darn yo-yo. Its like one moment I'm doing ok, but then others I'm on the verge of tears. I don't know what to do with these unfamiliar feelings. I've never felt this way before. I wish that i could just make these feelings disapper but i know that i can't. The only thing that i can do is try and deal with them. But i don't know ( Read more... )

I can't sleep at all! Its like when i do i just think of him. I was just sitting here thinking about how much i miss him. Why does love have to hurt so much? I've never ever been hurt like this before. Thats because i never left myself get really close to anyone. I never wanted to get attached to anyone, cause of the possibility of being hurt. But ( Read more... )

Is it strange that i have NO idea how i feel. I mean after yesterday im just so BLAH,I feel better. But i just don't know!

Today has to be one of the worst of my life. While i was in class, i got a call from and unkonwn number. I just said forget it, i'll call back later. So then that same person sent me a txt message, asking if i was nicole. And who i was to dennis. Now im like WHO the F**K is this? Her name was mandi, so i called her back , and she asked me if we ( Read more... )