its bar night, come play with me at the pub, keep me from drowning in my own sorrow. I have been entirely too depressed lately, so come and make me smile.

so... how am i? i literally have no idea. Yesterday was a life altering experience, and i don't know what to do about it ( Read more... )

busy,my life is ( Read more... )

how do you let go of someone... when you love them so much it hurts ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE BIG 2 5 !!!! QUARTER OF A CERNTURY, BITCHES ( Read more... )

(sigh) we'll try it again, im not sure if it'll work out, but i'll try. the cold heart is still there, but a little softer than yesterday.

he said he was worried about me, and that he was sorry he disappointed me. it's a start. we'll just have to work on it.

im turning to stone today... and i like it and it freaks me out at the same time. i feel more independent, but scared about just how much of me will go cold ( Read more... )

stange day. i feel oddly detached ( Read more... )

so i had a fabulous weekend. i met up with brian saturday night, and he smiled, and stared at me, and laughed and had a good time all night, and sunday and monday were the same way. we were cuddly and perfect and cute and it was great. but today... today he's stressed. and i don't want the fun we had to stop, but i don't know how to make any ( Read more... )

so he's still distant. i don't know what to do. i want to hold on to him and keep him, cause he's what i want... but i want to make him happy, and for some reason he won't let me. i can't even make him smile most of the time... and i don't know why. He says he's stressed, but do most people deal with stress by pushing away their girlfriends? ( Read more... )