haha. I like the ending. But i feel you with all that. I think it's hard not to feel that way when you aren't preoccupied. Do you actively try to be indifferent to things and not react to something you want to?
At first it was an active apathy, but now I almost do it unconsciously and it's a problem. This is not applied to everything though, only certain stuff.
yea, i went through a phase kinda like that. i think it's a good thing to go through that because I did it because whenever people around me seemed indifferent to most things, they gave off an air like "i've got better things to worry about" making them seem like they're an interesting person. But when I got so used to it, I felt pretty empty cuz I really didnt have anything better to worry about.
sry i know this is way random of me to be posting when you haven't a clue to who i am...i kinda stumbled here and ended up sitting and reading this one post over and over....how come you want to be indifferent to things? and how indifferent can you be if you spend that much time worrying and don't get to the much desired sleep? perhaps the conscious indifference is starting to confuse you in terms of what you want....? idk just some thoughts
this was pretty randomajrlmonkeySeptember 27 2004, 22:47:07 UTC
The conscious indifference initially was a way to ignore some things I wanted no part of. And it's turned into a long lasting problem that I want to get rid of. Now I put on the apathy when I'm facing problems and people but when I get home and sit down and think about what I've done I realize I'm making a mistake. yeah...I kind of lost my focus somewhere here.
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