This is the most horrible thing I've ever felt. I just want to be with her. But, I can't be with her. I can't. There's 2,000 miles separating us ( Read more... )

I can't think of anything to say that's right. The woman I love is far away from me, and she's going to be so much further away in about 30 hours. Not that the extra 1,500 miles is going to make a difference.

Ah, I found out why I'm gagging and trying to cough/hack/throw up something that isn't really there.

It's because my uvula is so swollen that it is initiating my gag reflex.

AWESOME.

Anticipation has always been horrible to me. No matter the event, it always makes me upset and just wish the damned thing would start and get over with ( Read more... )

Everyday another liar, here comes another thief,
Prepare yourself for much more sorrow!
Depend on much more grief! - excerpt from I Know Where You're At by Strait Up

I just wish I knew what to do. I am powerless and it upsets me greatly.

Damn it all.

Ich werde in die Tannen gehen ( Read more... )

If you love someone, you do not want them to suffer ( Read more... )

12 more days. Just twelve more days. Then, she's gone and I don't know when I'll see her again or for how long.

I am beset by sorrow.

I want to copy-paste some lyrics here to help express what I'm feeling ( Read more... )

I hate feeling powerless, incapable, impotent. So much useless emotion that leaves me distressed, morose, melancholy ( Read more... )