it was the only way
and i am so sorry.

i am just a horrible person
hurt the only person who i ever cared about
who i ever loved
who i do love
i hate myself.

It's amazing when the people you could trust the most you just suddenly don't anymore. especially when its someone you've known your whole life, another you've known since 4 or 5th grade, or a guy at work who really knew how hard it was to you to trust someone ( Read more... )

i think i lost him. i dont know what i want. im so confused. i do love him. i need to think.

Life sucks ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANT!! I LOVE YOU!!

I hate this journal, nobody ever reads it, and if they do, they just dont care. Grant's finally home. I missed him.

Ashalie i've really wanted to talk to you the past couple of days, but you haven't been online..call me soon k? skfjksjf

I reallly don't like myself. I just don't understand what the hell is wrong with me. All I do is complain about EVERYTHING! and then I just cry about it later. I'm such a fucking idiot

This morning had a fight with my dad. Now he's being a total ass. Whatever I don't care. I have a quiz in algebra tomorrow, I think thats the only thing that's making me go. At least it's the last day. I finished my spread finally ( Read more... )

The past couple of days have been sooo boring and slow. I went x-mas shopping with my mom yesterday. And I have no idea what to get anybody. I need to get stuff for Mom, Dad, Sisters, Ashalie, and Tony. I have no idea.! I'm going shopping on Thursday with Christina and Catherine, and i'm definitly getting Grant's then. And hopefully I can find ( Read more... )

So i did end up calling in after all. I was going to go and buy grants watch, but i was afraid that id get the wrong one, and then he'll pretend to like it when he really doesn't. And that would make me feel bad. But whatever, i'll just go next week or something. I went to the mall with tony, saw yovettes son there, he works with frank. I sure ( Read more... )