I'm so tired of not being able to work and doctors and more doctors and pain!!!!!!!!!!!!! Fucking suckssssssssssssssssssssssssss

Thank the heavens, God, Olodumare, Jehovah, Budda and whatever or whoever. This has been one of the worst years I've ever (or the world has ever) experienced. Neurosurgeon says my back is too dangerous to fix and I'll still stay with the nerve pain so I'm into the second opinion process. If they correlate, its back to another machine and pain ( Read more... )

Thanksgiving went well. The turkey fell apart which is the way my family likes it and it was delish. It was a nice quiet holiday. I had to do dinner in stages. Baste the turkey, go back to bed to relieve the pain. It never got relieved. Don't have an idea what to cook for Christmas. I'll have to check around. Anyone have any suggestions ( Read more... )

It'searly morning and it's raining like it used to do on most of the Thanksgivings while I was growing up. I did a bit (hah) of cooking yesterday so as soon as my daughter wakes up and puts the turkey in the oven out house will smell like a home, full of turkey, dressing, peach pie, freshly made fudge etc. Because of the rain and my back, I am ( Read more... )

 Things have changed so much for me in the past 4 months it's not even funny.  One of the being my username.  I deleted my entire other journal that I've had for over 6 years.  Why?  It was time for a change.  Things that weren't working for me anymore I just put in a box somewhere in the back of my head.  I also learned how to stand up for myself ( Read more... )

Shit! Ran out of time.

My God how my life has changed.  Some for the good, some for the bad.  No one here knows me and posting in this journal will not help anyone know me.  I am disabled and in constant pain.  They started me on long acting morphine today.  I'm scared.  Soon it will be wheelchair time.  God forbid!!  I have others to look to for help.  Can't sit any ( Read more... )