It hasn't stopped raining in about 30 hours, I went running in the rain yesterday morning, got so wet that I couldn't feel anything anymore, it was one of things that feels both utterly exhilarating and totally numbingly stupid all at once. I think sometimes that I should be certifiable, but I live in the middle of nowhere and get bored, besides ( Read more... )

If your life was a movie, what would the soundtrack be ( Read more... )

Well can you, it's not like existentialism can change because by it's nature is the acceptance that everything is just energy so every action, thought, time and passion exists relative to everything else and is therefore meaningless.  Can this thought really cause a crisis more than once, well I guess if you don't accept it and then rethink it then ( Read more... )

So I did something and now I feel really sick, to my stomach, like I'm gonna vomit everywhere. So to anyone reading this who has never met me I hate comfrontation so I avoid it like crazy until it all bursts out in these sort of semi-mothering, psychobable rants. I sent two of these in e-mail this evening and now I'm racked with guilt. For three ( Read more... )

I am in a weird stage, hence writing in journal. I like ranting a void, it doesn't respond and there is no reason to make me small again (yes this is cribbed from a Sleeper lyric ( Read more... )

Okay so I seem to of become a little un-boovered lately with, well mostly everything. I am all about the cave mentality at the moment with all it's unhealthy and un-beautiful side effects, so in an attempt to counter this I will get my hair cut next week. It currently just looks straggly, I want to try and return it to the state of the pic here ( Read more... )

I hate people who hate Christmas, it seems so purposely cynical, like you're just planning to be a melodramatic annoying fuck and ruin everyone else's time. So I guess I hate myself because I'm one of those people. Not that I want to hate Christmas, I do all the seasonal stuff and certainly don't go about being all bah-humbug. I give people ( Read more... )

It's the kind of weather today that makes you want to slit your wrists just so you'll have something colourful to look at. I hate British winters, they're just wet and depressing, I've locked myself in a room and cranked the radiator and I still can't feel my toes. At least in Canada there is snow which muffles everything and central heating ( Read more... )

So I have been a little bit of a tizzy ever since I left Spain, feeling everything way too much, being bolder etc. People have told me that I look different, ever since. So, I couldn't really work out why, but Michelle put it quite succinctly. 'You're happy, so you're glowing'. She is totally right. Going to Spain helped me regain my ( Read more... )

So I am sitting at the computer in my hostel with half an hour to go until we check out. It has been an amazing trip; so what I needed. I really had a wonderful time, I absorbed myself in the architecture and character of the city during the day and drank sangria and acted like a mad person at night, which is the way to do holidays if you ask me ( Read more... )