When I walk out of that meeting room and get into my car I feel whole. The outside world escapes me. I become grounded in complete serenity. And although there are still worries and fears, there is suddenly this beauty about it all. An unexplainable beauty. I begin to contemplate parts of myself, other people, and the world that I often push to the ( Read more... )

I havent let myself sit down and think about it, let alone put my emotions into words. When I start to I force myself to do something else, be somewhere else, in body and mind. Im utterly petrified to feel the intensity of them. why should I let myself feel that when nothing I can change the outcome of what was done.. nothing can elliviate it. Not ( Read more... )

Theres certain things in this wrold that just leave me in nothing but frustration.  Thoughts about it, the way its abused, the way its used, in ways that people are hurt and in shambles. Soemtiems i wonder if the pain of it outweighs the happiness. Sometimes, it becomes to hard to think about. People ask why am i spending thousands of dollars and ( Read more... )

sometimes reality is hard to grasp. i move slowly in this fast paced world and think nothing. everything just loses its meaning. loses what i thought or wanted it to mean. what exactly to do/ where to go from here. i always said if two people love each other, how can it end up this way.  i say its because we are two different people. thats not the ( Read more... )

dear:life ( Read more... )

 i think about my future alot ( Read more... )

 i remember the days that i would stare at the blinking box; where i would be left hanging on to every single word that you said ( Read more... )

i dont understand why things happen the way they do ( Read more... )

ive been wanting to be here for some time ( Read more... )

 i know that its been awhile ( Read more... )