why do i always chase the ones that are so hard to catch?

do they secretly love it? or do they want to spare my feelings?

do me a favor, don't spare them. please, just reject me now, so that i can finally move on. i'd rather be rejected than you not saying anything.

your silence gives me false hope.

(something i wrote before, but never finished. Thank goodness it was a saved draft ( Read more... )

i promised myself i'd never cry over you. even my friends told me you werent worth my tears.

you arent the grade school guy. you werent even the high school guy.

but today, i cried. and stupidly in front of you.

it's my own fault. i should know better than to fall for a total douchebag.

damn me. damn me and my girly hormones.

 there are some things i can never learn. like mixing coffee and hormones. makes me all jittery and unstable. lol

sometimes i think you're bipolar or something. you're sweet and affectionate one day, then totally distant the next. i honestly don't get you.
but then again, whatever what mood you're in, one thing is always constant : YOU HAVE A ( Read more... )

 i swear, this is getting ridiculous. it was only supposed to be a simple crush. a simple, schoolgirl crush. i can't like you. i hardly know you! sure we're closer. sure, we joke around. but we're not...there yet. we never talked about anything deep.  sure, we share the same passion, which is acting. but is that really enough?! it can't be. IT ( Read more... )

 i was walking home from school, and i thought about Rico Yan. yeah that's right, the filipino actor. i was a little girl, and for some reason my cousin wanted to introduce me to soap operas (P.S. BIG mistake). so i decided to give it a shot. i sat myself down with my yaya and the rest of the help to see what the big fuss was about. suddenly, there ( Read more... )

so i decided to dress nicely today. there are days when i have time in the morning to actually put a decent outfit together and actually fix myself. i do it because i can and i want to. and i happen be pretty fucking girly sometimes. im not ashamed of it. so yeah, i decided to dress nicely today. i wore my awesome velvet purple jacket. cuz i felt ( Read more... )

 belated happy birthday to patty, reggie, and john2x.

i swear to God i didnt forget. i just didn't get to post anything. :D

so i went to multiply to Chin's page to check out the Christmas party pictures, which showed me drunk off my ass. i'd show em to you, but they're pretty embarrasing. lol  Alcohol and i definitely don't mix.

so there i am, at the website i said i would never go to. i remember trying to write a script and one of my characters says:

"I don't go to ( Read more... )

so yeah, i am having some sort of panic attack. so what do i do? i write in my blog. cuz that's my therapy. it's my therapy for my friends in the phils and vegas to see what im feeling. through  my blog. while im having a panic attack. im rambling. i know. i need to stop now.

ok, so...i like someone. there i said. it. i've been saying it. actually, ( Read more... )