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[aletheis]

i feel like i'm ruining my life & my future.  i can't work, i can't think, & all i want to do is read old entries from various journals. 
Once, i used to write & once i used to produce.  Now i am old & pathetic & worthless.  Sometime i might expand upon why, but suffice it to say that it involves an inability to find motivation coupled with a

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[nekochef]

/me offers many pettings.

I'm guessing that the move will definitely help you feel reenergized :)

From what I've seen the PhD process is in general very very rough on people and forces just about everyone to go through periods of deep introspection and self-doubt.

chambana... is capable of doing that to people with little to no effort. I know I tried living their twice with the same result :)

gogo to the UK, enjoy :)

[linmayu]

You've put into words a feeling that I've experienced many times in my life. The world likes to put bright young people on a pedestal and then do everything possible to knock them down from it, it seems. I hope you are able to find happiness and meaning in your new life; moving to another country is a huge (and definitely exciting) change.

*also offers pettings*

[anonymous]

And, so, why the double spaces between sentences?

[anonymous]

Yeah, really? Single spaces say "despair" much more.

[thetexanphoenix]

I know what you mean, very much so. I'm struggling with the same feelings in Hyde Park. And that's what it feels like inside: dying. Like disconnecting and fading away from anything meaningful. Or at least that's how I feel. I'm sorry that you feel a similar way. Are you and Robert moving to the UK? When do y'all go and where? This is M. Toups by the way. I hope things get better for you!

[borborygmy]

"i'm humiliated by the promise i once possessed."

YA HURRRRRRRRRRRRRRD.

(i am told that is how they say "i know what you mean" in St. Louis.)

(let's hang out this summer.)