i have less to say... which is a sign of growth... so absence is the key to my health...

love you...

so March 10 was my one year anniversary for quitting smoking... oh my... can you believe... i can't... and I can't say that i ever really felt free until that year rolled around... I actually enjoy being a non-smoker... for the longest time I still considered myself a smoker... nonactive mind you... but a smoker regardles... now I love not being a ( Read more... )

educate me ( Read more... )

1 John 2:16 ( Read more... )

Did you ever understand the man that looked at you and sighed. With is hand in his pocket and a parrot at his side. Don't be frightened by the bird, he's not really alive, but comforts the man that you can't seem to understand. My head is telling me that your thoughts move to spelling necrophilia. Please don't, you'll ruin the moment. I know you ( Read more... )

more than my arm is talking now...my entire self is slapping me...screaming at me...killing me..."WHAT DO YOU WANT?"... nobody knows...I can't ignore it forever...I will eventually be another statistic...another one of thosebleck ( Read more... )

Friday was my last day at integrity packaging. Yesterday at around 5pm...a former co-worker called me. She, un-like me, is not overly emotional...but she cried on the phone. She can't handle it anymore (I know how she feels). Her debate was whether or not to even show up today...and turn in her stuff. Our conversation was a sort-of insensitive ( Read more... )

I finally ignored my urge to abandon my lj and to say hello....or I maybe I finally surrendered to my urge to not.....which ever it is....it still loves you....and is very pleased to know that you are here......WELCOME ( Read more... )

someone once told me....I don't think other people hate themselves as much as Idealists...and then he said....I don't think anyone else could hate themselves as much as you....and I said.....do i really hate myself....now of course this is all a paraphrase..but do I really hate myself....recently I have found myself discussing a possible theory of ( Read more... )