It's crazy how much can happen in a year. every birthday i think ahead and wonder what this year will bring. I always have expectations and usually they are never reached. that's ok though because new things happen that i never ever thought would. this year i look ahead and i know some things that are going to happen are concrete. there is no ( Read more... )

Only know what I'm told, only know what I'm told
Fast asleep daydreaming
Start to push, break your own glass ceiling
Can't count, can't catch the pieces falling

Who let it end up on the ground
How am I gonna know you're letting me down
How did I end up on the ground

Only do what I'm told, only do what I'm told
Last to leave cold calling
You're ( Read more... )

you may say i'm obvious.. but i say it's easier.. we can't all have a way with words like you... what is it you want from me.. you haunt my every dream... if you have something to say to me just say it..i don't care what you say to me anymore.. you are not who you once were.. but then again i guess neither am i...your words have stung one to many ( Read more... )

In better days I've been known to listen ( Read more... )

I am colorblind ( Read more... )

today it's ok that i'm not perfect, today it's ok that i made mistakes, today it's ok that i don't feel happy, today it's ok that i didn't smile all day long. I only smiled when i was truly happy... today i came a little bit closer to fixing myself instead of trying to fix someone else.. today i became human again with real feelings and real ( Read more... )

spinning, spirelling, tossing, turning, i can't seem to be still.... i don't know up from down but i have a sneaking suspition i'm headed down.. everytime it's different, but always the same... no one ever stays the same.. but yet i'm always stuck at the same... i don't know what to do or where to go, but i know that here is not the place... but ( Read more... )

So things have been alright lately... maybe it's because i've been sick the past week and my mom is always nice to me when i'm sick cause she feels bad for me... i'm thinking i was crazy to move back home, but then i remember i really didnt have a choice at the time because i wasn't working.. no work=no money... no money=no food, so i guess i had ( Read more... )

So i'm sitting at the computer again.. unable to sleep.. this seems to becoming a pattern.. a pattern that scares me because i've been here before more then once. i just sit and think these thoughts over and over and over again. there is nothing i can do to stop them. everytime they are different but yet always the same. and then when i finally sit ( Read more... )

So i figured i'd join this thingy since it seems everyone is... so this is my first entry... i'd write more but i'm tired so instead i'm going to sleep... good night