My lover is dying, wasting away in a sub standard hospital (DCH). The doctors won't operate because of the liability and complications that have arisen since she's been there. Instead they are filling her with morphine and darvocet, hiding the pain in her GI tract that caused her to go in the first place. My lover is dying and Im afraid to talk to ( Read more... )

The feeling you get when unfamiliar fingers are intertwined with your own- even dreaming about it is enough to keep trying. The taste of a strangers' lips pressed against yours. The feeling of a stranger's legs wrapped around your torso. It makes me (and you I imagine) think there is a reason to keep living. I'm not saying sex is everything, but ( Read more... )

I'm paralyzed by sadness.

the value one puts on an object or action is based both on hedonic pleasure and intensity of engagement. - dr e. Tory higgins ( Read more... )

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Saturday, Finch invited me to hang out with him at the Kappa Sig house. I havent been to a fraternity house in over a year at least. I showed up around 2 right as rollin in the hay was packing up to finish their set. Seems like the start of an unlucky day, right? Wrong. Finch and I drank our way through many beers that day, and we ended up ( Read more... )

Twitching badly ( Read more... )

REYKJAVIK, Iceland -- Bobby Fischer, the reclusive chess genius who became a Cold War hero by dethroning the Soviet world champion in 1972 and later renounced his American citizenship, has died. He was 64 ( Read more... )

lets nuke the bridge we torched 2000 times before, this time well blast it all to hell

F.O.D. - Green Day (from Dookie)

you know, ive heard that song through my childhood over and over again.
but its never meant anything to me before now. and it feels like a sordid liberation.

i am obsessed with the velvet underground