I'm personally amazed at how close Siobhan got to me today. I keep a shield up at all times. Its is the hardest to see. I have woven without meaning to several layers into it. It protects me so well. I barely have to keep it up but Siobhan put a chink in my wonderful armor today. I put up a friendly personality that is slightly flamboyant. I ( Read more... )

well, the days have passed and things have changed for me. I have some relevations come to be. I am now in deep contemplation about things that have been said to me from mutiple parties... some of them are true.. others... eeriely accurate. So I have come to question a few things ( Read more... )

Started work again so I am happy. Got some pretty cool news from them in general. I do like that I make double the amount of money on holidays so instead of making 12 a hour, I make 24 and they recognize 9 holidays so the potential of walking out on one eight hour day or work is almost 200 dollars.. kinda cool. I go in at 3.30 but I will leave ( Read more... )

So life is confusing at times ( Read more... )

Internet is restored but the cost of fixing the computer that internet was given to was almost too much.. I'm getting really bad insomnia traits ( Read more... )

Got roaring drunk yesterday... don't ask how or why. It was a night of firsts. Especially hate that I have really bad motion sickness ( Read more... )

Faith is a fickle thing. I now have the job I wanted, will begin to start saving to go to college in the spring. I still have no interest in people. I have realized I am initially I am a mean person, it takes effort to do something good. I do good acts to repent for my sins because its the only way I know how to atone. Sometimes I don't think ( Read more... )

Well, things are well ( Read more... )

So time passes, I broke up with Debi. Reality is... I'm kinda relieved she's getting over me. Right now, attachments to me are going to send me into more and more confusion. I need to get to know her as a friend because I realize... that if I can get to know someone that is the only way I fall in love with them. I am just confused about things ( Read more... )

So as life passes by, things grow more and more complex as my deadline for move date comes closer and closer ( Read more... )