my mouth tastes like pop rocks and coke.

so i'm sick ( Read more... )

something's really bothering me.

i don't know what it is.

it feels like when you've had a bad dream and you wake up and don't remember it.

except. it's not that.

all the things we do on an every day basis is out of fear.

fear of being judged
fear of losing something
fear of dying
fear of being an outcast
fear of being caught
etc etc etc...

i feel as if i've been shedding "fears" more and more rapidly.

i'm starting to feel free.

i went for a walk last night.

i felt so content.

i came back to go to sleep.

there was a firefly in my room.
and i have come to the conclusion that the best way to fall asleep is with a firefly in your room.

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i'm finally getting to where i want to be.

a few good friends.

a whole lot of acquaintances.

and a great band ... and a solo project with some promise.

i laid down a few rythem guitar tracks .... and a few little catchy simple lead lines today ... it's very folkpop oriented.

for once i'm quite content.

i'm bored with everyone.

everyone screams that they care about everyone and that they're such goood friends etc etc etc.

the only kids from school that seem to give a shit are kiki, lauren and wil.

and to them ... i am grateful.

playing music is AMAZING.

solo stuff is getting hard because ... haha .. holland keeps taking my solo stuff..

whatevs.

i don't care ... as long as i get to play music. i really don't give a shit.

mcgowan's back ( Read more... )